As some of you may have noticed, I haven’t written in a while. This is partially due to adjusting to a new job position, taking in two roommates temporarily at two different times, thyroid issues, and a major bout of depression from weaning off Bupropion while dealing with the thyroid issues.
It seems like since 2015 I’ve been giving more of myself and concentrating on others rather than being selfish and doing things strictly just for me. I love doing things for others, don’t get me wrong, but at some point it would be nice to refuel the tank so I can turn around and give more kindness and encouragement out to others.
Since the tank is empty, this has caused me to think outwardly outrageous things. Here are a few examples.
“Just because I’m overly helpful is no reason for you to passively aggressively allude to having raging diarrhea. Asking where the Imodium is, isn’t enough to get me to leave you alone.”
“Why are you still wearing your high school jacket 22 years later? Only The Beach Boys get to do that.”
“Coming in with your music blaring from a battered blue tooth speaker hanging from your belt loop isn’t a good idea. Especially when curse words are involved. This is a family establishment. Also telling your significant other, ‘You sound white’…is like saying you’ve suddenly realized something you hadn’t noticed about them. I think he knows. Maybe turn off the music and communicate more.”
“Yes, I AM on my knees. Why do you act surprised? That’s the only way I can reach the shelf! #tallpeopleproblems” “I’m on my knees? Noooooo, I thought I was a pirate without peg-legs!” “Yes I’m on my knees. You’re old. I thought we were just making obvious statements.”
Those are just things that happened at work. Here are some things that happened at home.
“Whose underwear are these, and why are they out where the squirrels have access to them? Are the squirrels the cause of the person losing their underwear?”
“Why is there blood dripped on the sidewalk where we exit the steps? Can’t they bludgeon each other indoors?”
“Why is there a guy shouting ‘Let me in!’ at 1 am? If he wasn’t such a dog, maybe he wouldn’t have been let out with the other two. Guess that finally answers the question, ‘Who let the dogs out’.”
“Why are all the dogs barking suddenly while I’m trying to pray and meditate? (Dogs suddenly stop barking) My prayers worked!” (Cats starts rustling bags) “Dang it!”
This is only a small sampling, and yes, I get that they may not be all that bad. However, for me they are. Thank you for being patient with me while I’m working my way out of a 6 month funk. To family and friends who I’ve seen in this length of time, if I seem a bit stand-offish, it isn’t you, it genuinely is me.
What are some thoughts you have had that you wouldn’t normally say in your everyday life? Were they due to depression or lack of sleep or both?